ramen epiphany

just bit into an apple and when i took it out it was bloody

okay random but ick.
dunno why but i ve been having nosebleeds daily for the past few weeks
and its driving me crazy

you would think that with so much blood loss i would at least lose some weight yes?
but noooooo

instead i have to change bed sheets like crazy while stupid body makes more stupid blood
swear my nose is getting flattened from me constantly holding a tissue against it


it just occured me tonight when i was making shin ramen for supper
(was told about it ages ago by an aunt but it just clicked)

that not only has the date of when i can access my trust fund been pushed back to when i am 45 instead of 30

-i would be offended that my parents obviously dont trust me but it IS their money
(you know how on american tv they come in it when they are 21, LIES!
okay so L has already come into it, but she s exception okay)-

that there are conditions including

a) acceptable marriage with approved partner
b) finishing my university degree

HELLO?

OMG
I HAVE TO STUDY
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

dies.


funny story though
this guy for whom mum set up an xiang qin arranged engagement with me
is apparently a closet drug addict who recently was busted

!!! haha

but she remains undeterred
she s said that when i have my coming of age at the club she s going to
' get all the boy boys to come'
thankfully, she hasnt mentioned it since
her type of boy boys that she s introducing to me are all so BORING.
except for drug addict, but even i have to agree he was probably unsuitable
he still takes allowance
and he s been working at a uber high paying job for 4 years!

i just want to stay in melbourne and lead my simple student life
with my normal feet-on-ground friends
(not that you sg people dont have your feet on the ground, but when we get together it somehow becomes okay to consider $1000 stockings. its not, they will RIP and shred then my $$ will go down the drainnnnn)
dont think i can get used to singapore society anymore
too stifling, dynamic is too different
and even dad notices that when i m back my worst traits come to fore
(which is saying a lot since he s super blur)

oh except for the fact that i like hawker centre food (so sue me), Changi airport, easily accessible Balenciaga and cheap taxi rides


wow its amazing the insights a cup of instant noodles can give



dunno why i m feeling so broke lately
my allowance should be sufficient shouldnt it?
if i budget properly i get about $50 a day
so i cant spend extravagantly
but i dont usually anyway
and $50 should be enough for lunch and petrol etc

but i just looked into my wallet
and despite having an advance of $100 this morning
i only have $25 left
not even enough for train fare!
omg. and i didnt even BUY anything
no seriously.

plus i have zero savings
but i have an excuse for that, my dad told me
i dont have to save $ cause he s got me covered
its sufficient that i dont keep running out and forwarding more

what a contrast to when i was younger, when he was encouraging savings and budgeting etc

okay i feel bad, obviously my dad has had to lower expectations
hahaha

i need to figure out where all my money goes, and i want to finish the shin ramen
(only meant to eat half cause its late and i must diet)
woo hoo, nvm,
since magic noodles can solve issues, i m going to finish it off


oh yes as promised, my new Loubs
love them muchly,
but a bit confused as to what to wear it with
tried it on with jeans and it didnt go

have a feeling its going to end up in my look-at pile.
crap.



but i have 21st coming up, by hook or by crook i m going to wear it at least once.
I HAVE TO. if not i m feel unjustified and guilty. and i eat when i m emotional. not good.




sorry lee i know you like Lindsay, but she s totally butchering Ungaro. the collection fail

Cho cheng s/s 10.
<3!

bri, when are we going to ny? i wanna get cho cheng super structured tops. and just the other day i woke up craving Magnolia vanilla cupcakes.
wow my evil tummy just gave a vicous craving squabble

oh man
i think i just figured out where my allowance went
rightttt, the louboutins
-EVERYONE BUY MAGIC RAMEN, I M NOT KIDDING!-

damn all shoes, why couldnt i be addicted to collecting say,
pebbles or something
pebbles are free. and pretty.

k i m going to budget old school style
a dollar a day into my Sakuragi piggy bank

oh crap but i just remembered i really really want that new Dior necklace
reallyyyyy want it

tech stuff

i hate technology.
i m such an old dinosaur, seriously.
i mean, first my camera asked me if i wanted it to reformat
and i stupidly clicked yes, cause you know, reformat sounds so HARMLESS
like, reboot or something, which just means to restart itself yes?
but no.
apparently it means to erase stuff.
half my photos are gone, which is annoying but isnt worth half the drama it took to try to upload them onto my laptop

(hence the sad few photos below, everything else is damaged)

and then my computer is now demanding a cookie from me
HELLO
I WANT COOKIE TOO OKAY.
COOKIES DONT JUST FALL FROM THE SKY.
god.
and i cant even out how to give my computer its damn cookie and its too late to ring anyone.

technology migraine, seriously.

haha i m so incompetent sometimes, i should just stick to typewriters.

sailing photos!
climbing the main mast





il divo! loved the concert, Allelujia gave me goosebumps.

and i know this is all sorts of wrong, but i love Carlos.
he s so bad boy, sleazy but not.
cause i mean, he s Il Divo right, how sleazy can that get?

hahas.





watched the Pan Pac Jiu Jitsu championship at MSAC
and i must say, out of all the martial arts besides kendo
this is probably the most fun to watch

at Cheryl's 21st
:)

alright i m going to pour myself into bed and hope i can mold myself into my blankets and konk out till tomorrow morning.
had a crazy few days rushing assignments, seminars and studying for this morning's exams.

will deal with current photos and cookies later
oh yes, and show the new shoes i bought,
caved and purchased the mount street Christian Louboutins
they are pure loveeeeeeeeeeeeeee

hhehehhe

Got this off someone's blog and it really made me think.

'Today before you think of saying an unkind word - Think of someone who can't speak.

Today before you complain about life - Think of someone who went too early to heaven.

And when you are tired and complain about your job - Think of the unemployed, the disabled and those who wished they had your job.

But before you think of pointing the finger or condemning another - Remember that not one of us are without sin and we all answer to one maker.

And when depressing thoughts seem to get you down - Put a smile on your face and thank God you're alive and still around.


Life is a gift,
Live it,
Enjoy it,
Celebrate it,
And fulfill it.'

Really puts things in perspective doesnt it?

Tracey dear, you really have a massive heart of gold.
Love ya hun!

Started writing my bucket list. a la the movie with morgan freeman and jack nicholson.
which is a list of things i want to do before i 'kick the bucket'

cant wait to cross some off
will share once i find appropriate software to load it in to!

nights all.

vent

I WANT NEW BB SOO BAD. my emails/twitter/fb are building up and i cant deal because my laptop takes friggin 20 minutes to start up and i dont have time to sit around and wait.

i have migraine. because my life is so faux complicated.
which means it isnt exactly THAT complicated, when i actually think about it. but
ITS MY LIFE OKAY. ITS FEELS UBER COMPLICATED AND I CANT DEAL

feels like a constant throbbing migraine, and my heart seems on be beating to the tune of
'OMG.. WHAT AM I GOING TO DO.. LUB DUB LUB DUBBBBBB' etc

panic panic breathe breathe

exams coming up and i dont want to study
i dont want to deal with insurance for my stolen stuff
i dont want to deal with my weight
i dont want to do three assignments and give public presentations
i dont want to pay phone bill
i dont want to pay speeding ticket
i want to run for committee in the position i want without giving a damn about anyone else
i want my friends to stop feuding

need new phone PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LET ME FIND ONE ON THE GROUND.
want to go sailing but CANT FIT IT INTO MY SCHEDULE

want to quit my chicken job but i feel bad (WHAT ON EARTH POSSESSED ME TO WORK)
i went through a phase of trying to be indepedent, part of working class, humble and serene, like mother teresa you know? well, NO. i dont want anymore.

AND
I WANT MY NOSE TO GROW A FREAKING BRIDGE WITHOUT PLASTIC SURGERY.
not too hard right?
grow button nose, grow!
i want tall natural nose i can rub and blow and not worry about implant falling out.

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK (k not the nose, i understand)
I WANT NICE NORMAL LIFE like the wakefield twins
i want to be like Jess and Elizabeth

oh, and lets not even go to my lovelife.
KA BOOM
yes that was that imploding upon itself.
stupid stupid stupid

omg
feel like that chick in Excorcist
when her head turns 360 degrees round and round and round

i miss my best friends.
who dont even CALL anymore.
Clare Lee Bri
WHERE ARE YOU?

UPDATE:

k thought i was finished venting but obviously not
URGH URGH

i want to go shopping and buy pretty things
i want to stop nosebleeding
i want to sleep more than 6 hours at a time
and i want to go to both the Fashion TV Model Awards and twilight sailing, which wont work cause they clash.
i want to watch final destination.

okay the last one is manageable.
randall, if you re reading this.
HINT.

just bought two bars of chocolate because i think i m having minor breakdown
and i m ignoring guilty pangs because goddammit, there are fatter people in this world than me.
and it wasnt even dark chocolate (wooo its FATTY CREAMY MILK CHOCOLATE)
Lee has heart attack, i have mental breakdown
omggggg

UPDATE 2: haha okay in a space of 20 minutes, i m in a brilliant mood
aside from the fact i think i just had a v v v big moodswing

i love chocolate (yes i finished the 2 bars)
and i just read Jason and Lee's blog
both of which were hiliarious

and i have my hands on a funny pic of a friend



okay its funny to me.

:)

woopy

so much has happened since my last blog post
perhaps the most intense was having my purse stolen from work
and subsequently having to deal with police reports, replacing things and of course, the damn keys.
took my mum's set of keys for the first time ever
and it just had to be my luck they were stolen from me.

at least now the locks on mum's car and the house are changed
so i dont worry at night that someone is going to come in and set the house on fire

i hate fire, the thought of a burning building and having to pick which item to save gives me a headache even on the best of days. photos? wallet? jewellery?

actually not wallet, becuase my new one has nothing in it so far.
total loss was a blackberry, a gym membership card, cash, gift cards, train ticket, crown free parking and assorted identification. and jewellery.
wish me luck asking my boss for compensation!
fingers crossed.

my head just gave a particulary vicious throb, think i have a 'cold ache'
is it just me, or does anyone else experience cold weather migraines?

anyway!

other than being busy with that, i ve taken up a new hobby to get moving and get out of this rut i ve seem to have fallen into since Hen left, Fashion week wound up and exams started creeping closer.

i ve taken up sailing! on a tall ship. more photos to come soon.

:)

want to update my twitter and facebook status, but i m feeling slightly schizo and cant decide. so i figured, ahh i ll blog it.


amanda phoon- epiphany- unreuited love is a super unique feeling that i probably cant experience for long (i hope!) and i should enjoy it while i can. plus the trepidation and ache is fun-ish. i should savour.

amanda phoon takes one step forward and then two steps back.

amanda phoon has a cold weather migraine, feuding friends migraine and thinking too much migraine

off to bed now, will blog about events soon
nights!

:)

wedding

was fortunate enough to be invited to attend Jason's sister's wedding on Saturday
Congrats, Tom and Gess!

the whole thing was very sweet
think it must be super satisfying being a wedding photographer

or a wedding planner
which i am determined to be at least once in my lifetime
and have duly informed my friends thus :)

egad, think of the headsets!
hehehhehehe
dw, i am qualified, have read Emily Post's Complete Guide to Wedding Etiquette
and am knowledgable in certain tactical operations
i.e maneuvering seating plans at dinner parties, which could put U.N strategists to shame

anyway, i digress.



it was a vietnamese wedding in case you were wondering



the bride was gorgeous!

yummy food!

its like my prayers were magically answered, been craving oysters like crazy after Longrain, and voila! there they were in all their slimy glory.






had on a very uninspired outfit, Laura Ashley cardi and dress. guess i dont do florals well! but didnt want to wear black or white in case it was a faux pas, and my wardrobe is unfortunately very monochrome



drawing under my nails now with white nail pencil
supposedly to make it look brighter and healithier

doesnt seem to be working

feeling slightly annoyed at the fact that group 38 is getting taken out by their demonstrator to Jacques Reymond for lunch
of course, a free meal is always good
least of all JR
but what am i going to do for my 21st now?
gee thanks group 38 demo, now i have to come up with a new idea
its like cock block, but not
party block!!!

damn.



UPDATE: my skin is looking SHOCKING. whats with these angry red marks? i m not going back to my dermatologist, does anyone know a good one?

ballarat

sigh been really letting myself go lately
feeling uber uber depressed
so many unflattering pictures of me popping up on facebook

i ve decided, from monday onwards i am going to start new diet regime
so that leaves tomorrow and sunday to 'cheat' before i hop right to it

yes sireee
hate winter weight :(

had a pretty awesome mid semester break!
as predicted, i didnt do much uni work at all
but yes. going to get to that, together with the dieting
i m going to be a SAINT from monday onwards.
just call me Saint Phoon.

headed to Silk Road last Sunday for a one-off clubbing event
had a really good time!
the place looked even prettier than it did the last time i went
never even noticed the chandeliers till i saw Tommy's photos recently
dance floor was small and really crowded, but to be honest, i didnt mind it as i spent more time at the various bars anyway

love it when i attend an event without the safety net of close friends and it turns out to be a banging night :)

gorgeous

getting obsessed with deciding if i have should have a 21st, and where. wonder if Silk Road is available for private functions?

had a relaxing little midweek roadtrip up to Ballarat
left on Tuesday and stayed the night at Heritage on Lydiard
nice-ish little boutique hotel with killer restaurant and deliciously warm hottub and pool
cannot believe how many photos there are!

the middle picture says 'Ballarat, the home of Mars' (as in a Mars Bar). i wonder why that is so? do Ballarat people like Mars Bars?

missing late night walks in the cold air. i wish winter would last just a little bit longer.

Was glad i had the opportunity to see some of Hans Heysen's work, my mom and i both like his landscapes. sounds weird, but i love the way he did his tree bark, the bold strokes take so much skill to produce the effect of that of a gumtree!

highlight of my trip (and reason i organised it actually) was dinner. haha, sad but true! chef Damien Jones left Circa and Vin cellar to go to Lydiard wine bar, so we went to check it out. Nice decor, good wine list, okay service.

12 course tapas style degustation, excellent value and defnitely a solid showing. off the top of my head, we had kitchen made potato bread with basil oil and mt zero olives, salmon and herb terrine, roast duck salad, red wine butter and dry aged rump steak, mushroom croquette, asian style oysters and some anchovie canape.

hated the pyegana cheddar at the end. might eventually grow on me, but was too creamy for my tastes and the aftertaste was weird .

easily my favourite were the desserts. had three to share i think?
anyway, the chocolate fondant with sherry icecream, and the blood orange jelly with cream fraiche icecream were yummy.

oh yes silly me, i even have a picture of this, the other dessert was date pudding with vanilla custard.

the fondant was delish. warm oooozey chocolate. umm.

was so full by the end of it, but in excellent spirits so even Kev telling ghostly tales on a walk to Safeway for mixers couldnt faze me. hahah.



had breakfast at L'Expresso the next morning. Pretty sure this place is a new (or recent?) addition to The Age Good Food Guide 2010, and i think it was a hit. Huge portions, very satisfying. The baked beans were a nice surprise, they were perfectly baked in a little ceramic dish with some tomato and herb accents, and not too mushy

too bad i m not much of a CD person, if not this place's CD collection would surely have had me enthralled



we then went for a short drive up past Creswick, to the Tangled Maze
stumbled through hedges for an hour looking for clues, backtracking and wandering around the maze (felt like i was Harry potter, in the triwizard tournamnet! haha)
before playing some minigolf

was such a pretty place, the minigolf course sported some pretty breathtaking views across the area

Came back to Melbourne, then had dinner at Longrain with Henny.
Bri is on a detox till monday so poor girl could only watch



had my betel nut leaf and trout thingy, which i love, along with various assortment of dishes, soft shell crab, tofu, oysters etc
Hen's favourite is the sweet pork hork.

the coconut icecream was goooooddd, now
arent i lucky i had it before i started my diet?

boy i love holidays
:)

gonna run off now, cause i have a wedding luncheon to attend tomorrow,
and OMIGOD i just looked at the clock and its 4.15 am

nights!
or morning, depending on how you swing