the p life

8/21/08

i love my jaseth

these are a wee bit overdue,
but happy birthday darling!
i love love love you

you make my life so much more interesting!
:)

8/17/08

" He lifted her chin gently and looked at her with a misunderstanding comprehension in his face. 'Who are you?', he asked, though secretly he was quietly confident of her answer. He knew what she would say, he had her pegged from the moment he saw her. But as she looked up at him through veiled eyelashes with dewdrops in her eyes, he was surprised to see that look flash through them; ageless, timeless. 'I am Enogitna,' she replied. 'I was born to live for love, and die for love. Nothing more, nothing less. I am the chosen one to bring a meaningless message to this society, and in doing so, will destroy myself'.

He was puzzled. 'Then who am I?' he asked, fearing the answer for reasons he knew not. She caught, and held his gaze with a glimmer of a smile just blooming at the corners of her mouth.

'You? You are nothing', she said, feeling his tangible relief.

'You are just my downfall,' her mind whispered. "

I only thought about you several times this weekend
i m getting there.
though god knows, i feel like skipping uni tomorrow

its hard to get past the mortification
and feeling so stupid
and unworthy

i feel like the woman in that chinese story
who always forgot that being burnt hurt
and kept on playing with fire
till one day she melded with the flames
and eventually became ash.

'omg phoon you are so stupid.
no more!
dont you ever learn your lesson!'
slaps

gah.
i need to escape
and i plan to, tonight.
but in case anyone, (i.e parents) ever comes here
i ll spare you details
use your imagination.

honestly i m so dumb sometimes

but its so much easier being stupid
then facing up to reality
especially when everything feels like
its falling apart at the seams.
i love my friends and my lifestyle so much
but something is still missing

like you said
i m not as strong mentally
i cant appreciate whats good
i m immature
i have to fix it.

but i know this,
when it comes to flight or fight
i m sorry, i fly.

mood: bright blue and emo

i am suddenly hit with a pang of nostalgia

So many things have happened lately
i scarcely know where to begin.
Maybe with the relatively fluffy ones
:)

Friday night, met up with Nick, had an awesome dinner at Hills,
think peking duck and roast pork, before heading to Tracey's
and finally... a movie. which is a big deal considering the last one i watched was Harry Potter last year.
Nick and I must have been the only people left in the universe who hadnt watched 'Dark Knight'.
But not anymore!
i dont want to give out spoilers
but the ending of Dark Knight ruined the movie for me.
:(

It was so good catching up with you Nick
I ve missed you so much!

peking duck wraps

combination roast duck and pork on rice

'special' calamari

in the cinema!

Had another girls night on Sat
Clare and Bri came over, for the 1st time since Bri left for the US
Mom was so pleased she cooked up a storm

then we went to Bubble to dance the night away
Have to celebrate Clare finishing her assignments and me passing!
wore pants that were a tad too big though
and hoisting them up every 10 secs
is NOT a good look.

haha dad falling asleep watching the olympics

the face-stuffers

chicken rice, cheese pie, takopachi

look at that greedy face

cupcake love!

haha my mom is enraptured by the cupcakes too.
free ad: little cupcakes nears flinders has the best ones!

bri is so eyeing the cupcakes

our brave attempts at practicing shuffling

okay this entry is sounding more and more forced by the minute
i m feeling blue
and attempting to blog-happy isnt working.

brit is flying back to canada in two days
she has decided to take the rest of the term off dentistry
and i m already feeling more upset than i thought i would

and
yogi.
i m feeling such a mix of emotions
i dont even know why.
i m angry at you, though i know i have no right
i m scared, cause you might have succeeded so easily
i m upset, cause i dont want to ever lose you
i m worried, cause you might try again
i really do love you, though we havent known each other long
but most of all, i am a little bit jealous.
i wish i was you

cause at least you had the courage to take a stand
i feel like i m only hanging on by a thread as well
i m envious
i wish i could do the same
and escape

omg this is so irresponsible of me
but really yogi
please recover.

this breaks my heart, i m so confused
i dont want to take away anything from you
and make this about me
i just.
want the best for you
whatever that might be.

8/13/08

what a bad day

current mood: down

you said you dont want to hurt me
but obviously its not working.
只能陪你到這裡,畢竟有些事不可以.
超過了友情,還不到愛情, 到底該不該哭泣?
when it comes to giving hot/cold treatment,
i think you are a master at it.
想太多是我還是你
我很不服氣,也開始懷疑, 眼前的人是不是同一個真實的你?
i m so tired of putting myself out there
i wish i wasnt so retarded
曖昧讓人受盡委屈, 找不到相愛的證據
何時該前進何時該放棄
連擁抱都沒有勇氣.
whoever said to 'love like you ve never been hurt' deserves to be shot
its like S all over again

stick a fork in me, i m done.

曖昧讓人變得貪心, 直到等待失去意義
無奈我和你寫不出結局.

8/12/08

backteeth's back, come on!

went to the MDSS charity concert yesterday
and it was crazy entertaining!
i was so amused.

watch the backteeth boys perform their rendition of 'you've got dental decay'
(i want it that way) below.

hehehe

yeahhhhhh, feel the dent love!

went for hotpot dinner after, i think i am seriously addicted to the food from that place.
i ve been there at least once a month for the past semester
and i still feel like going this weekend!

omg. its 5.35 am and i have uni at 8.
i dont think i m going to make it

SHHHHHHHHHHHHHHIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIITTTTTTTTTEEEEEEEEEEEEE
i would happily skip
but its clinic and my poor partner will be ditched
ah why me :(

lunch at spicy fish and girls night in!

lee this very special video is uploaded specially for you :)

omg we look so unglam! note clare sitting by the fridge moping. hahah she was feeling sad cause vincent was just there a few nights ago (this was before he went back to singapore) and i was teasing the cat as a diabolical revenge for my allergies. we didnt realise bri was filming the whole thing! plus that night, clare and bri actually made potato gratin and i tried my hand at making carbonara. from scratch! HAHAH iron chef here i come lah

oh if you're wondering why i was in my pyjamas, it was for a pyjama party at Eve. clare refused to dress up though, so it was just wyn, jo and i! lol