i wonder if its a singaporean thing to be so disgustingly neurotic
maybe its our lifestyle/environment/singaporean air
at least i know i m not the only one

but i am so sick of trying to be practical or sensible
not that its even particularly successful

i just want to spend all day in bed
and have someone come save me from self destructing

i m tired of dealing with this all by myself
all of this independent new age woman crap
i just want to close my eyes

i hate that i am so stupid
its like i never remember lessons learnt. should just get it tattooed

when will i finally start living the life i want

friends are transient, true contentment is a myth

hollywood has a lot to answer for if you ask me.

i should just up and move and disappear, and let melbourne become like the singapore i left behind

perhaps only by looking through my camera lenses am i able to differentiate reality from fantasy and remember through photos